so i read her autobiography ” I Put a Spell on You” and i think  i lost some respect for her. I haven’t listened to my “remixed and reimagined” CD or my verve remix Cd that has some of her stuff remixed on it.

She seemed pretty  arogant. Not that it matters with music, but I find her to be an extremely unattractive woman internally or externally. She goes on through all her multiple multiple lovers. Native American, White American, White Europeans, Africans, Black Americans…  She is proud of dancing naked and stomping around in boots and bikinis, leaving her child behind to behave this way.  Hopping up and going when she felt like it. I can’t stand irresponsibe parents, especially grown women with offspring who act like they are still teenagers. Disowning her father and not coming to see him as he lay dying… Not too much of respectable lifestyle…

It drives to the point that men are attracted to confidence than actualy physical appearance. Even  have to admit a man that I’d never be physically attracted to looks 100% different when he’s strutting around like he is hotter than magma. It gives some weird ….je nous se qua (i hate french).

I wish I could up myself like that. But instead I look into mirrors and pick myself to peices until I’m just frustrated. Which is short lived, because I can’t change anything and i have no intentions of ever going under the knife so, it is what it is…